For so long in my life i have never experience pressure of this magnitude.
i have got 3 sisters, all undergraduates of NUS.
eldest studying enginneering, 2nd studying in business, 3rd studying chem
and my father is the only source of our expenditure. he is old, no longer muscular.
maybe as compared to my father, the pressure i am experiencing is nothing.

All my family members and relatives had high expectations for me and i have to prove to them that i can do it.

i know that it is because i am good, thats why they set expectations for me to meet.
they nag because they care
they scold because they care

if i am bad they will not even bother to screw up. i can simly fuck off all i want.

but they know that i can do it thats why they have high expectations

i am 2 years older den my peers and i have to be better than the rest

i am 2 years older den my peers and i have to be better than the rest

i am 2 years older den my peers and i have to be better than the rest

sometimes i feel so ashame.
i am already 19 years old and i don't know what i wnat to pursue in future.

i must get a scholarship to ease the burden of my family

There are so many things in life that are worth chasing for.
For now, you are not the priority.