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Should i pull out of CO or should i not?

i did promised the teacher-in-charge that i could help out
but it was on the basis of 2 times a week, from 5-7
now it becomes 5 times a week with minimum of 4 hours per session for 3 weeks
and it is likely to increase
i will reach home at 10 plus after each session except the ones on saturday
i might not be able to cope with my studies, which i already have problems with
ya but if i really want to do it i will be able to. but there is hardly any interest left in CO
i mean i like CO really. no doubt. but the passion for it is not really there at the moment
the commitment lvl is too high for the 'me' now. if it was the 'me' in ta1, i would surely take up the challenge and go all. but the 'me' is focuses more on myself, not the others. i tihnk it is becoz i know more about myself, but this makes me more selfish. i am not so 'on' anymore. and i don;t know if it is good or bad.

if i stayed on thru out, with 100% commitment, i would definitely feel good at the end of it, but at the expense of at least 60 hours. if i stayed on with <50% commitment, i might screw up on the actual day causing the whole syf team to get like what? silver? shit. now i am not sure if i could stay on with 100% commitment. i think it is highly unlikely though.

if i pull out of CO i will be quite irresponsible becoz i promised the teacher dammit. i admit that it was a rash decision when i promised him on the phone without even asking about the details. the only info he gave me was 2 times a week, 5-7. gahhh

maybe i should get the teacher's number and ask him if i could only go for 2 days a week. but that is <50% commitment and i will screw up on the actual day.

one should go all out when he wants to achieve something. going less than half of what he is capable of is worse than not going.

the person who told me this was ironically the CO conductor in CHS. gahhhh

my sister said that sometimes i am too confident
it isn't bad or anything but others may think that i am too proud

okay i will try to keep it down a little

and not comment on people/issues when unneccessary

syf

a chance to steal glances agn?

nononnonnononono not after i master my scores

3 weeks to do it

i am going for it

ar less time to study= failing subjects dammit

but i think i missed CO quite a lot. i still listen to CO music and still have the urge to perform. and here is my chance. the teacher called and asked if i could go back and help!! a teacher inviting me to go and play for the school!! i feel honoured but at the same time feel abit forced to comply becoz i would be some aeqe4fafqwasfaf if i were to reject him. and this invitation is SO timely coz squash competition just ended. argh maybe he was acting dumb when he asked me if the squash competition is over. argh maybe he just calls everyone to go back.

but i really hope that i can help, to bring glory to the school

Different world.
no way
impossible
no chance
at all

i am just another passerby

maybe you fail to realise and maybe you nvr will

unless my acting fails

you will nvr realise

unless i tell you

you will nvr realise

nvrnvrnvr

always observe,

before we comment on others

this will be a motivational post. er nvm
tsk
sometimes i really want to go there and slap you you know
coz you just fail to get your engine running

WAKING UP IN MIDNIGHT IS BAD FOR HEALTH

no one can help you if you can't help yourself
*shakes head