you know
some people are just hopeless
no matter how much effort you put in to try to help them
they just refuse to help themselves
or say that they tried but it didn't work

even the saints can only do this much
if they are not willing to help themselves enough
we should not even try helping
they deserve to rot till the moment of realisation, or to eternity

those who have tried to help them might think that they are the ones who ruin those people because the former didn't put in enough effort to help the latter

it ends up with the ones who tried to help, becoming one of the hopeless.

so we should not help others,
who are unwilling to help themselves enough

5. to win the novice title for any upcoming squash event

marigold, marigold, marigold.

gone

i lost to a sec 3 AH boy who plays for Elias Park Condo

i hate to admit defeat. moreover he is a sec 3 AH boy.

Mr. Rongbinho asked if i did my best

my best wasn't enough.

i ran for every ball. the AH boy's father applauded and asked me to join Team Elias Park in the coming inter-constituency competition. who cares. the point is i didn't win

i want it so much. there is only one thing in my mind when i play. i want to win.

when i was losing i thought about my friends. i promised them i would win it. now i have lost. i broke my promise.

what's more. i have let myself down.

losing sucks

yaya winning is not everything. it's about the process. right

in life, almost nothing follows your way. one should always make do of anything that comes in his way. but for now, let me indulge in my sorrow

sweat/tears

how can ppl change just like that?
i don't know what i have done wrong (agn)
i don't know what happened (agn)
but this particular someone,
changed
just like that
maybe i am seriously very detestable
oh well
if i am the one who is supposed to duck off from your life.
i don't know what i can say about you.
what did i do to you that make you hate me?
we no longer have conversations that never ends
how can ppl change just like that?
you sort of woke me up earlier this year
now, you are doing to reverse.
i am confused.
how can ppl change just like that?

this will be a motivational post. er nvm
tsk
sometimes i really want to go there and slap you you know
coz you just fail to get your engine running

WAKING UP IN MIDNIGHT IS BAD FOR HEALTH

no one can help you if you can't help yourself
*shakes head