so many times

i am talking to you now there are so many times that i want to tell you how i feel but i don't want to be just another person who used to like you but you don't like him back i also don't want to be a rebound and i want to commit and i don't want things to turn sour because i do enjoy your company. if i were to tell these to you, we might not be this close anymore. sighx this is a testy and sensitive time you are definitely not the perfect one. but i think i can deal with your imperfection which sometimes make you more beautiful and i do get jealous when you go out with other guys i won't be 100% honest if i say that i don't wish that you and your bf break up since you are not happy with him and i want you to be happy and you feel happier talking to me i feel quite shitty when you bought that from me. the gift which you were suppose to give him quite foolish to charge at a price lower than cost. but seeing that you are happy at the end of the day is probably the only solace or rather, seeing you happy and smiling makes me happy too. and seeing you cry makes me sad i have the urge to protect you from all harms i want to embrace you you were afraid that there is no one to care for you and protect you i would do just that, even more, if you allow me to. because i don't want you to shun me and i don;t want you to feel uncomfortable and i want you to be at ease when you are with me hence the inaction, and i don't feel good hiding it to myself but i don't want you to shun me i know not how the future unfolds but yes there is only one situation that i can be nice to her even when i am attached eventually or maybe she is just friendly i can't tell you all these but i secretly hope that you see this. someday