i have live my life for 2 decades
and i have never felt so upset before

never. never in my life i feel so cheated

never in my life i waste my time so effectively

never.

Standard Operating Procedure

fuck you

i have nvr been so majorly punked. twice in this year so far.

being promised of a rank but only to have it voided on the last day.

or rather the last hour before the actual event

how can i not feel cheated? how can i not feel betrayed?

"things don't always go your way"

"life is not a bed of roses"

yea yea i know all these

but these are the last things that i want to hear from this fuked up person

i will definitely feeel so fucking disgusted and puke into the phone if i were to hear you saying it

i can curse all i want here. but of coz there will be dire consequences.

so is it worth it?

i am not gonna ask "what did i do to deserve all these?" becoz no one can answer me.



i was some how influenced by my fuked up supervisor and my behaviour has some how changed a little, to a fuked up way. fucking fucked up

i realised it along the way but i just let it be becoz i thought that by slacking, i am gaining something... free time... relaxed... whatever

now i am ashamed of myself, for allow him to influence me to have such a fuked up mindset.

here are the words that the fuked up person always say. i fucking wonder whether he knows the meaning of these sentences coz he nvr really do what he says

"i will try my best"

"i will get back to you"

"i will let you know asap"

fuck all these




now the only thing that i am unhappy about is

why the fuck did such a fuked up person come into my life?

giving me false hopes.

just fucking tell me off right away la fuck so that i don't need to feel so fucking cheated.



however only thru such circumstances, people from the other end of the spectrum step into my life.

and not all the people you meet in your life are even half as sincere and dedicated like you

and make me realise this brutal fact that there are ups and downs in life

but fuck la currently i am having downs only

nonetheless i am thankful to have good and bad people coming in at this stage of my life.

giving me a wide range of people whom i will meet time and again in future

and allowing me to see people in a more accurate and perceptive way

and not trust fucked up people



argh fucking screwed up



argh fuck la as if you all know what the fuck i was talking about in this post

duck you all la