i was this close to __________
i thank beale and jiahe for their constructive advice
if not i might __________
ohh man i can't imagine it

impulse can kill

gut feeling is for lower life forms, for they have no brains to think

i was THIS close to becoming a lower life form

mann

not yet indeed...

what was i thinking...
shitt...
noooo...
i shall abstain...
for now...
until...


arrr shitt...

i know i shouldn't i know i shouldn't i know i shouldn't i know i shouldn't at this point of time i know i shouldn't i know i shouldn't so i won't i hope i won't i hope i won't i hope i won't i won't i won't i won't. yes i won't