I was lamenting about not having anything/anyone to think about/of.

Now i have someone to think about/of. and i think about/of her very often.

it's so often that it scares me. it has been a long while since anyone fills my mind.

and now

i am lamenting again.

because.

i dare not do anything else except thinking about/of her.

:(

dream is what it is called for a simple reason
it will never come true
at least for me
first it was yt
then it was vc

what a poor guy



sigh

4th in nationals

we had the heart

now

everything is falling apart

4th in nationals

in my dreams

in my dreams

i applied for h3 chem
the sci hod said i stand a good chance
and now i am not on the list of people who are accepted
this feeling is worse than losing a close squash match
just when i decided to work hard..
from E to B
and that B is one mark away from A i have to say this
i still cannot make it
this is life
to take it positively i hope this can spur me to get what i want in future
but now is still hard to take
argh fuck it
sigh

"how to appreciate the human body if you don't take biology? how do you get into medical school?"

if i had been through this attachment before i choose my subject combi
i would definitely take biology
i regret
sigh

maybe i don't need to do it anymore
coz you don't need it
so from now i will stop it totally