So I saw this on your tumblr. And I want to be that someone. But I don't have you.

Telling u how I feel

Read your tumblr again. Few times everyday. So u posted sad things again. The statements and questions on pictures Your longing for someone to take care and think of you. I very much want to say that u have always been the last thing in my mind when I go to bed since 3 months ago. But I won't. Because I don't think u want me to.

you

i don;t feel good ignoring you but it is necessary

you again

you insisted that you wish you nvr met him i also wish i wish that i didn't meet you. coz ever since i met you. you have been fucking up my mind "we should nvr allow someone to have so much power to affect us" sigh

care less

care less makes you feel less care less LT care less...

hah

kinda funny if i were to fail the test i would feel i have wasted my time there yesterday now that i passed, i regretted not spending more time there. lol

so they patched up. i foresee that it won't last. it is good that she learns it the hard way but i don't want him to take advantage of her but L.T., what is meant to be will be. have some patience, you knew it won't be short and it won't be easy. patience.

you ask if i have 1 wish what would i wish for wished that you get over him and be together with the person you love and i wish that the person is me ok so there are 3 wishes, combined to 1

the art of maintaining distance. is too damn hard to master not that i don't care but i tend to care too much

so many times

i am talking to you now there are so many times that i want to tell you how i feel but i don't want to be just another person who used to like you but you don't like him back i also don't want to be a rebound and i want to commit and i don't want things to turn sour because i do enjoy your company. if i were to tell these to you, we might not be this close anymore. sighx this is a testy and sensitive time you are definitely not the perfect one. but i think i can deal with your imperfection which sometimes make you more beautiful and i do get jealous when you go out with other guys i won't be 100% honest if i say that i don't wish that you and your bf break up since you are not happy with him and i want you to be happy and you feel happier talking to me i feel quite shitty when you bought that from me. the gift which you were suppose to give him quite foolish to charge at a price lower than cost. but seeing that you are happy at the end of the day is probably the only solace or rather, seeing you happy and smiling makes me happy too. and seeing you cry makes me sad i have the urge to protect you from all harms i want to embrace you you were afraid that there is no one to care for you and protect you i would do just that, even more, if you allow me to. because i don't want you to shun me and i don;t want you to feel uncomfortable and i want you to be at ease when you are with me hence the inaction, and i don't feel good hiding it to myself but i don't want you to shun me i know not how the future unfolds but yes there is only one situation that i can be nice to her even when i am attached eventually or maybe she is just friendly i can't tell you all these but i secretly hope that you see this. someday

hmm...

so i secretly hope...

一些事不是看到了希望才去坚持，而是因为坚持了才看见希望

冲凉时。 不知道是水花打在我的脸上， 还是。。。

《见与不见》—仓央嘉措
你见，或者不见我
我就在那里
不悲不喜
你念，或者不念我
情就在那里
不来不去
你爱，或者不爱我
爱就在那里
不增不减
你跟，或者不跟我
我的手就在你手里
不舍不弃
来我的怀里
或者
让我住进你的心里
默然 相爱
寂静 欢喜
beautiful

answering to the point is very very very important

but

answering to the point < providing the prof what he/she wants

dear L.T.
i know that you are a leader
you have the characteristics to be a leader
you can't sit around and wait for things to happen
but it seems that the rest can.
so you initiate meetings and ideas
and the rest sit around and nominate you to be the leader
and in the end you do all the shit for them
i know that you are really tempted to give your honest opinion in any upcoming peer evaluation

hey L.T.
you are having doubts whether SMU is for you,
you do not like the environment where you have to speak up, or maybe not yet
you do not understand a lot of things taught in class
you feel insecure
you feel that you have to do something about it
and in the process you might be too hard on yourself
you are feeling stressed
you are not enjoying school
school turns out to be not as easy as you once thought
you want to get into deans list in the 1st year
you might be giving yourself unneccessary pressure.
there are some projects here and there, when things are not up to your standard you tend to redo and make things work your way
which may have burned you
you are actually coping fine but you don't feel secure so you see the need to work hard.
work hard
work hard.
it is as if you are going to school to work, not so much about learning
but the most important thing that i think you should learn
is to be less hard on yourself
this is the place for you to vent your feelings out.
at least you have this place to vent your feelings out
good.
you need to tell yourself that grades are not everything
there are many things in life which are more important
however,
i know that you are giving yourself a test
you are testing your own limits
you want to know if you really among the top
you want to work hard for this whole semester and see if you are really deans list caliber
i respect that
so when you feel unjust/ tired
you can come to this place to vent.
because you are a noob, you don't have a girlfriend to talk to you and share your sorrows :D
so work hard
and by the end of this semester you should have no regrets
good luck, and persevere

hey L.T.
you might feel a little stressed now
having a hard time adjusting
not too sure of what to do
but it is all up to you
to rise and rise and rise and rise and rise and rise and rise
until lambs become lions
maybe a dog first
XD

my university life starts tmr.
can't wait.
woo!

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for her i will wear specs.. all day everyday...

XD