You are The Sun

Happiness, Content, Joy.

The meanings for the Sun are fairly simple and consistent.

Young, healthy, new, fresh. The brain is working, things that were muddled come clear, everything falls into place, and everything seems to go your way.

The Sun is ruled by the Sun, of course. This is the light that comes after the long dark night, Apollo to the Moon's Diana. A positive card, it promises you your day in the sun. Glory, gain, triumph, pleasure, truth, success. As the moon symbolized inspiration from the unconscious, from dreams, this card symbolizes discoveries made fully consciousness and wide awake. You have an understanding and enjoyment of science and math, beautifully constructed music, carefully reasoned philosophy. It is a card of intellect, clarity of mind, and feelings of youthful energy.

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What LoTR Character Are You?

You are most like Arwen. Calm and reserved, you are not given to sudden outbursts. You conduct yourself with dignity...most of the time. The rest of the time you cut loose are are totally cool. You don't really think of yourself as popular, but plenty of people like you. You are not given to needless flirting. The right person will come along some day, and you are content to wait

now i feel like crying

this is the first task for me

i need to bring the team back

i must bring the team back

i must... i must...

i am disgusted by myself too. what has the system made us into...
beasts fighting for a post in a pdp to boost their testimonials

we need to think with our hearts

>possessive

maybe i don't need to do it anymore
coz you don't need it
so from now i will stop it totally

i am uber childish

when 2 persons are mutually possessive
they are in love

pos-ses-sive
1.wanting someone to have feelings of love or friendship only for you
2.unwilling to let other people use something you own

i know i shouldn't i know i shouldn't i know i shouldn't i know i shouldn't at this point of time i know i shouldn't i know i shouldn't so i won't i hope i won't i hope i won't i hope i won't i won't i won't i won't. yes i won't

Baby won't you tell me why there is sadness in your eyes
I don't wanna say goodbye to you
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head

You're the one who set it up
Now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget every little thing you said
But there is something left in my head

I won't forget
The feelings so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know
You were never satisfied no matter how I tried
Now you wanna say goodbye to me
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head


Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
Don't know which way to go
There ain't so much to say now between us
There ain't so much for you
There ain't so much for me anymore


arrrrrrrggggghhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh


i will ask you after your A's. maybe

i have been trying too hard.
and i realised that i was just one of the many many many worker bees
to all worker bees out there, you should just stop trying.
unless you are lucky? maybe

howhowhow

Should i pull out of CO or should i not?

i did promised the teacher-in-charge that i could help out
but it was on the basis of 2 times a week, from 5-7
now it becomes 5 times a week with minimum of 4 hours per session for 3 weeks
and it is likely to increase
i will reach home at 10 plus after each session except the ones on saturday
i might not be able to cope with my studies, which i already have problems with
ya but if i really want to do it i will be able to. but there is hardly any interest left in CO
i mean i like CO really. no doubt. but the passion for it is not really there at the moment
the commitment lvl is too high for the 'me' now. if it was the 'me' in ta1, i would surely take up the challenge and go all. but the 'me' is focuses more on myself, not the others. i tihnk it is becoz i know more about myself, but this makes me more selfish. i am not so 'on' anymore. and i don;t know if it is good or bad.

if i stayed on thru out, with 100% commitment, i would definitely feel good at the end of it, but at the expense of at least 60 hours. if i stayed on with <50% commitment, i might screw up on the actual day causing the whole syf team to get like what? silver? shit. now i am not sure if i could stay on with 100% commitment. i think it is highly unlikely though.

if i pull out of CO i will be quite irresponsible becoz i promised the teacher dammit. i admit that it was a rash decision when i promised him on the phone without even asking about the details. the only info he gave me was 2 times a week, 5-7. gahhh

maybe i should get the teacher's number and ask him if i could only go for 2 days a week. but that is <50% commitment and i will screw up on the actual day.

one should go all out when he wants to achieve something. going less than half of what he is capable of is worse than not going.

the person who told me this was ironically the CO conductor in CHS. gahhhh

my sister said that sometimes i am too confident
it isn't bad or anything but others may think that i am too proud

okay i will try to keep it down a little

and not comment on people/issues when unneccessary

syf

a chance to steal glances agn?

nononnonnononono not after i master my scores

3 weeks to do it

i am going for it

ar less time to study= failing subjects dammit

but i think i missed CO quite a lot. i still listen to CO music and still have the urge to perform. and here is my chance. the teacher called and asked if i could go back and help!! a teacher inviting me to go and play for the school!! i feel honoured but at the same time feel abit forced to comply becoz i would be some aeqe4fafqwasfaf if i were to reject him. and this invitation is SO timely coz squash competition just ended. argh maybe he was acting dumb when he asked me if the squash competition is over. argh maybe he just calls everyone to go back.

but i really hope that i can help, to bring glory to the school

Different world.
no way
impossible
no chance
at all

i am just another passerby

maybe you fail to realise and maybe you nvr will

unless my acting fails

you will nvr realise

unless i tell you

you will nvr realise

nvrnvrnvr

always observe,

before we comment on others

this will be a motivational post. er nvm
tsk
sometimes i really want to go there and slap you you know
coz you just fail to get your engine running

WAKING UP IN MIDNIGHT IS BAD FOR HEALTH

no one can help you if you can't help yourself
*shakes head

For so long in my life i have never experience pressure of this magnitude.
i have got 3 sisters, all undergraduates of NUS.
eldest studying enginneering, 2nd studying in business, 3rd studying chem
and my father is the only source of our expenditure. he is old, no longer muscular.
maybe as compared to my father, the pressure i am experiencing is nothing.

All my family members and relatives had high expectations for me and i have to prove to them that i can do it.

i know that it is because i am good, thats why they set expectations for me to meet.
they nag because they care
they scold because they care

if i am bad they will not even bother to screw up. i can simly fuck off all i want.

but they know that i can do it thats why they have high expectations

i am 2 years older den my peers and i have to be better than the rest

i am 2 years older den my peers and i have to be better than the rest

i am 2 years older den my peers and i have to be better than the rest

sometimes i feel so ashame.
i am already 19 years old and i don't know what i wnat to pursue in future.

i must get a scholarship to ease the burden of my family

There are so many things in life that are worth chasing for.
For now, you are not the priority.