absence makes my heart fonder.

I was lamenting about not having anything/anyone to think about/of.

Now i have someone to think about/of. and i think about/of her very often.

it's so often that it scares me. it has been a long while since anyone fills my mind.

and now

i am lamenting again.

because.

i dare not do anything else except thinking about/of her.

:(

i miss the days when i could run. damnn

丹枫：
“为什么要分手？
在一起会比分开更辛苦吗？
会比分开后再也不能见面，
不能一起微笑，不能一起牵手
看着我嫁给其他男人，
看着你娶其他女生，
会更辛苦是吗？
比起这一切更辛苦的话
我们就分手吧。”

so touched. awww

it there is anything or anyone reading this.
wish me luck for tmr.

its only normal to feel a little uneasy even though it's only a small operation.

oh well wish me luck

and cheers to the upcoming MCs.

muahahaha

i need some distractions
something to think about
or someone else to think about.
there is so much free time by myself now
furthermore i spend so much time travelling by myself
one good thing about travelling by yourself is that you think about stuff and reflect on your actions
one bad thing about travelling by yourself is that you think TOO MUCH about a lot of things
i know that it is not appropriate, but most of the time i think about V
kept thinking about V

yes, thats you Vellayappan

HAHAHAHA

recently, this song by Boyzone stuck in my head.
Everyday I Love You.
there is this million dollar question in the lyrics

"If I ask, would you say 'yes'?"~~~

Vellayappan... i miss you...

the way of doing things.

in life

there are only 2 kinds of things.

the right things and the wrong things.

there are only 2 ways in doing these 2 kinds of things.

the right way and the wrong way.

so here are the permutations

doing the right thing the right way ---> good

doing the right thing the wrong way ---> bad

doing the wrong thing the wrong way ---> very bad

doing the wrong thing the right way ---> very good!

how to live life meaningfully?

我這一生中, 一定要再與你相見.
面對面的!!
至少一次!!
希望吧...

開始存錢啦!!!

"what seems terrible at first mayturn out to be a great thing. you can't predict"

maybe...

time will tell...

or is it just an excuse for those who just wanna link those bad things to the good things so that the bad things don't look that bad at the end of the day?

i have live my life for 2 decades
and i have never felt so upset before

never. never in my life i feel so cheated

never in my life i waste my time so effectively

never.

Standard Operating Procedure

fuck you

i have nvr been so majorly punked. twice in this year so far.

being promised of a rank but only to have it voided on the last day.

or rather the last hour before the actual event

how can i not feel cheated? how can i not feel betrayed?

"things don't always go your way"

"life is not a bed of roses"

yea yea i know all these

but these are the last things that i want to hear from this fuked up person

i will definitely feeel so fucking disgusted and puke into the phone if i were to hear you saying it

i can curse all i want here. but of coz there will be dire consequences.

so is it worth it?

i am not gonna ask "what did i do to deserve all these?" becoz no one can answer me.



i was some how influenced by my fuked up supervisor and my behaviour has some how changed a little, to a fuked up way. fucking fucked up

i realised it along the way but i just let it be becoz i thought that by slacking, i am gaining something... free time... relaxed... whatever

now i am ashamed of myself, for allow him to influence me to have such a fuked up mindset.

here are the words that the fuked up person always say. i fucking wonder whether he knows the meaning of these sentences coz he nvr really do what he says

"i will try my best"

"i will get back to you"

"i will let you know asap"

fuck all these




now the only thing that i am unhappy about is

why the fuck did such a fuked up person come into my life?

giving me false hopes.

just fucking tell me off right away la fuck so that i don't need to feel so fucking cheated.



however only thru such circumstances, people from the other end of the spectrum step into my life.

and not all the people you meet in your life are even half as sincere and dedicated like you

and make me realise this brutal fact that there are ups and downs in life

but fuck la currently i am having downs only

nonetheless i am thankful to have good and bad people coming in at this stage of my life.

giving me a wide range of people whom i will meet time and again in future

and allowing me to see people in a more accurate and perceptive way

and not trust fucked up people



argh fucking screwed up



argh fuck la as if you all know what the fuck i was talking about in this post

duck you all la

eh... this is too much already hor... i waited for so many months already... it's already may...
you better call...
you better call me soon..
you better call...
please call...
please please please...

i am a fan of the happeepill cartoons man
hahahaha

check this out!!


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but luck is not a controllable variable.

hard work is.

so i will continue to work hard.

but it sucks to see how one succeeds with luck.

life is fair.. life is fair..

I was totally stunned. Utterly shocked
losing to a guy who didn't study
by just 1 mark
and to think that i actually studied quite hard for it
my goodness
there goes my award
totally stunned

Quizzz

1. Who was the last person you fell asleep texting to?
Jia He. HAHAHAHA

2. Who was the last person you couldn't take your eyes off?
Some primary school mate

3. Is your handwriting large, tiny, or pretty normal?
normal, but ugly

4. Are you a morning person or a night person?
used to be night

5. What would you do if you opened up your front door full of surprises?
too stun to do anything

6. Are you a forgiving person?
yes. but not forgiving david at the moment hahaha

7. What do you drink?
water

8. Anything bothering you now?
PES status

9. What are you listening to right now?
sound of the engine of fridge

10. The highlight of your week?
MONOPOLY

11. Who were the last people you ate with?
BL, JH, HARE BAII

12. Who is the last person you talked to on the phone?
MOM

13. Who was the last person to text you?
2nd sis

14. Name someone with the same birthday as you?
not that i know of

15. What are your plans for tonight?
update blog

16. If you could move somewhere else, would you?
No

17. What does the seventh text in your inbox say?
just deleted inbox lol

18. What's your favorite subject?
Chemistry

19. Do you know if anyone likes you?
yes all the FIs love me. right

20. What did you dream about last night?
MY PRIMARY SCHOOL MATE WHOM I LIKED ZOMG

21. What were you doing at 4am this morning?
sleeping

22. What do you usually do first in the morning?
wake up

23. What is making you smile now?
the thought of booking in. yes.

24. How many different beverages have you had today?
4. water, white tea, beer, milk

25. Do you want children?
yes. at least 3

26. What is on your mind now?
sleep

27. Are you expecting a phone call?
no

28. If alcohol were banned, what would your reaction be?
pls don't...

29. Are you excited about this weekend?
yes. totally

30. When you're in a bad mood, what will always put you in a better mood?
feel pissed for awhile

31. Last time you swore?
in BL's house hahahaa

32. Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for?
Seldom

33. Where did you last sleep other than your house?
RB's house :D

-

ARE YOU:
-Perfect: I hope
-Tall: totally
-In your pajamas: sort of
-Left handed: no

LAST:
-Friend you saw: SONG HON
-Talked to on the phone: 2nd sis
-Person to text you: 2nd sis
-Is today better than yesterday: YEA
FAVORITE:
-Number: 2
-Color: red
-Place: anywhere as long as i am with the people i like

QUESTIONS:
Q: What was the first thing you did this morning when you got up?
shouting for my toothbrush hahaha

Q: Do you have anything bothering you?
yes but just try my best and let god do the rest

Q: What's the last movie you watched in theaters?
All's well End's well

Q: Do you smile a lot?
not really. depends on who i am with

Q: Do you wish upon stars?
yes. it nvr came true. but still wish

Q: Are you a friendly person?
depends

Q: Where did you sleep last night?
my bed

Q: When was the last time you cried?
2 weeks ago. sobs

Q: What was your last thought before going to bed?
to have a good dream

Q: Rate life as of right now, one being bad, ten being great?
7

Q: What do you hear right now?
dammit i said the sound of the engine of the fridge

Q: Does anything hurt you right now?
yes but i will try my best and let god do the rest I SAID IT BEFORE

Q: What's your favorite month?
DECEMBER becoz is holiday time


EMOTIONS:
-Are you missing someone right now?
yes. sobs

-Are you tired?
yaaaa

-Are your parents still married?
of coz. most loving couple ever


BASICS:
-Real name? LAU LEE TAT
-Age? going 21 in 3 weeks time zomg
-Eye color? black
-Male or female? MALE
-Single? ya
-Crushing? no
-Smart? of coz
-Hair color? Black + strands of white
-Phone or Camera? Phone.
-Health freak? yes
-Smoke or Drink? drink occasionally


FIRSTS:
-First best friend?
there are no best friends. they are all great friends

-First award?
smartees from mama?

-First enemy?
some bad characters in power ranger..

-First pet?
tortoise

-First vacation?
China


CURRENTLY:
-Eating? no
-Drinking? no
-Listening to? duck you
-Plans for tommorow? prepare stuff and book in
-Waiting for? A lvl results zomg


WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE GENDER:
-Lips or eyes? eyes
-Shorter or taller? taller so that my offsprings can be taller. hahahahaha
-Romantic or spontaneous? spontaneous. cuter
-Sensitive or loud? sensitive


HAVE YOU EVER:
-Drank hard drinks? sip.
-Lost glasses/contacts? i don't have them in the first place HAHAHA
-Ran away from home? YEA when i was 5 when mama didn't allow me to eat my SMARTEES. i ran as far as the lift lobby okay. hahahahaha
-Broken someone's heart? maybe?
-Been arrested? no


ANSWER HONESTLY:
-Do you like someone? you mean the ans above are not suppose to be honest?!!? ya i think i like someone
-Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? can be improved upon

alright good nighttt

alright man it has been a long time since i last blogged so i shall update it now.
alright i am serving NS in the police academy
and it is only during NS that you truly realise the importance of your love ones.
spending quality time with them and cherish them

anyway it is CNY!
had a crazy monopoly game just now wahahwhahwhahahhh
essentially it was TEAM VELLAYAPPAN vs SONG HON.
* red under garments don't work *
hahahahaha
super fun.
looking forward to your house warming, Beale. hahaha

my dear fren's adventure with the microwave oven

ma ma ma ma says:
loool
ma ma ma ma says:
yesterday
ma ma ma ma says:
i wanna make instant nodles
ma ma ma ma says:
noodles*
ma ma ma ma says:
i plugged in the electric kettle
ma ma ma ma says:
but forgot to turn on the switch
ma ma ma ma says:
so the water didn't boil
ma ma ma ma says:
den i poured it into the cup, onli to realise it wasn't cooking
ma ma ma ma says:
so i decided to put it in the microwave to cook it
ma ma ma ma says:
so happens that under the 'lid' there was aluminium foil
ma ma ma ma says:
so the cup noodles caught fire
ma ma ma ma says:
hahahahah
Lee Tat says:
wtf
Lee Tat says:
den how
Lee Tat says:
haha
Lee Tat says:
wah dangerous sia
ma ma ma ma says:
yea
ma ma ma ma says:
i stupid
ma ma ma ma says:
hahaha
Lee Tat says:
so you put it off?
Lee Tat says:
hahahaha
Lee Tat says:
using bare hands?
Lee Tat says:
wooo
ma ma ma ma says:
coz i set it to 2min
Lee Tat says:
crazy bitch
ma ma ma ma says:
den 1st 3 seconds
ma ma ma ma says:
have flickering lights inside le
Lee Tat says:
boil water also don't need 2 mins
ma ma ma ma says:
den i was like wtf
Lee Tat says:
wtf
Lee Tat says:
HAHA

ma ma ma ma says:
den i quickly turn off the microwave
ma ma ma ma says:
but the light still flickering
Lee Tat says:
i am posting this to my blog
ma ma ma ma says:
so i open the door
Lee Tat says:
ahahahaa
ma ma ma ma says:
den
ma ma ma ma says:
omg the lid on fire
ma ma ma ma says:
den i juz blow lo
Lee Tat says:
huaaa
ma ma ma ma says:
heng the thing nv meltdown
ma ma ma ma says:
den all the water come out
ma ma ma ma says:
hahaha
ma ma ma ma says:
onli the lid caught fire
Lee Tat says:
later some radioactive isotopes form you are screwedd
Lee Tat says:
haha
Lee Tat says:
who cleaned up the mess?
Lee Tat says:
hahaah
ma ma ma ma says:
den the top part of the inside of the microwave black black de
ma ma ma ma says:
eh, me lo
Lee Tat says:
hahaha
Lee Tat says:
so in thge end
Lee Tat says:
still got cup noodles to eat?
Lee Tat says:
haha
ma ma ma ma says:
that was the last one
ma ma ma ma says:
so dun have lo
ma ma ma ma says:
=S

hahahaha

dream is what it is called for a simple reason
it will never come true
at least for me
first it was yt
then it was vc

what a poor guy



sigh