hey L.T.
you might feel a little stressed now
having a hard time adjusting
not too sure of what to do
but it is all up to you
to rise and rise and rise and rise and rise and rise and rise
until lambs become lions
maybe a dog first
XD
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Sunday, August 14, 2011
Thursday, August 11, 2011
Monday, August 01, 2011
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
It has been long since I post on this blog!
just wanna record this surreal moment down~~
14th July
Having lunch with kw and rb. feeling sad becoz she didn't pick up my call yesterday and said that there is no reception in her house. rb commented that why would anyone have no mobile phone reception at home? i wonder.. sighh..
and then she called
XD
and said that she is on her way out
and she is free to meet
NOW!
omg.
i ran back to the hotel to get changed and gel my hair lol. after all it is the first time i am seeing her after 4-5 years time. and this lyrics come into mind.
穿上洋裝看著手錶
時間快到心碰碰的跳
和你的第一次約會來臨了
金色的陽光灑滿人行道
換了新唇膏把頭髮弄好
要你看到我的好
just that i am the girl now :D
fast forward
she is waiting for me at the control station.
and she is all that i can see
i misread some words on the map and she asked if i know how to read chinese words
of coz i know but in her presence, all i can see is her
"当然懂得看...但现在你在我的身边...我看懂的只有你"
okay that's just what i think. in the end i said said
"当然懂得看...但现在.."
"现在什么?"
"没什么"
XD
she left after some time because she has to meet a group of friends for some birthday party planning
and that day i was bursting with joy
15th July
the night before, she appeared in my dream. and i was holding her hand. woke up with such a sweet feeling. but it gets more bitter as i become more awake. becoz it can't really happen in reality.
well well today,
She is bringing us around shiling night market!
the guys went to the bugis of taiwan for some shopping. and it was raining
so i postponed the meeting time with her
i called her
she was having driving lessons! i forgot about it!
X(
felt so bad distracting her
i text her that we will be late and ask her to leave her stomach empty. and she responded that she will have just a quick bite before meeting us.
fast forward to shilin night market
it was raining heavily and i waited for her. she was carrying a brolly and walking towards me
she was beautiful
and she brought us to shilin night market and walk us around
she brought along her pet. we played with it while eating.
we walk around
we do not have a lot of common topics so there were some awkward silence.
got to know that she has acid reflux condition as well. and she just did an enthoscopy the week before. she has to make medication for 3 years, regularly. or she has to do operation. she will puke if she eats irregularly. and she has heartburn almost every other day
she is not suppose to eat by 5pm
i met her only at around 7pm
so she didn't really eat before that. now i know why she had to take a quick bite.
i almost feel like i have committed a crime by asking her to leave her stomach empty for the night market food.
X((
i promised her that i will call her 3 years later. to check on her condition.
and i will do it.
for a girl whom i met in singapore when she was here on exchange.
we didn't talk much in singapore
but she took time out for me
a short and average looking guy.
my vocabulary can't express my thankfulness adequately.
当时我有一鼓想保护她的冲动
but i realise that it can't possibily go further than this. so i kept quiet
it is getting late and she is going home.
i gave her a penchant with her name on it which i bought in kenting and 2 cards which i wrote during lunch at taipei 101. she thanked me?
and we walk different directions
and i console myself that
this can't never be the last time i see her
like what i have posted before on
WEDNESDAY, MAY 13, 2009
我這一生中, 一定要再與你相見.
面對面的!!
至少一次!!
希望吧...
開始存錢啦!!!
the longer we stay apart means we are closer to meeting each other again
...
16th july
we are leaving taiwan
want to hear her voice 1 last time but 该死的sim card has no more money in it. and i sent her an fb msg.
...
见到你让我觉得更加舍不得走。你这种好女孩子太少见了。很想和你更进一步但知道不是很可能。：＂(
...
and wish her good health
felt better after sending this msg
17th july
kept looking at facebook and check if she replied and fall asleep doing that. dreamt of many different kind of replies that she can give, thinking that it is reality.
dream, wake up, check phone, haven't reply, sleep, dream, wake up, check phone, haven't reply, sleep, dream, wake up, check phone, haven't reply, sleep, dream, wake up, check phone.
she replied and said that she will be busy when school starts
well well
friends ask me what are the chances of being together with her
i know and i said that it is close to zero
and i know that it is time to move on
it is quite a childish crush i must say but when you are in the midst of it, not easy to move on
what's on my mind now
getting an internship in taiwan
and call her in 3 years time
072014
i will call you
just wanna record this surreal moment down~~
14th July
Having lunch with kw and rb. feeling sad becoz she didn't pick up my call yesterday and said that there is no reception in her house. rb commented that why would anyone have no mobile phone reception at home? i wonder.. sighh..
and then she called
XD
and said that she is on her way out
and she is free to meet
NOW!
omg.
i ran back to the hotel to get changed and gel my hair lol. after all it is the first time i am seeing her after 4-5 years time. and this lyrics come into mind.
穿上洋裝看著手錶
時間快到心碰碰的跳
和你的第一次約會來臨了
金色的陽光灑滿人行道
換了新唇膏把頭髮弄好
要你看到我的好
just that i am the girl now :D
fast forward
she is waiting for me at the control station.
and she is all that i can see
i misread some words on the map and she asked if i know how to read chinese words
of coz i know but in her presence, all i can see is her
"当然懂得看...但现在你在我的身边...我看懂的只有你"
okay that's just what i think. in the end i said said
"当然懂得看...但现在.."
"现在什么?"
"没什么"
XD
she left after some time because she has to meet a group of friends for some birthday party planning
and that day i was bursting with joy
15th July
the night before, she appeared in my dream. and i was holding her hand. woke up with such a sweet feeling. but it gets more bitter as i become more awake. becoz it can't really happen in reality.
well well today,
She is bringing us around shiling night market!
the guys went to the bugis of taiwan for some shopping. and it was raining
so i postponed the meeting time with her
i called her
she was having driving lessons! i forgot about it!
X(
felt so bad distracting her
i text her that we will be late and ask her to leave her stomach empty. and she responded that she will have just a quick bite before meeting us.
fast forward to shilin night market
it was raining heavily and i waited for her. she was carrying a brolly and walking towards me
she was beautiful
and she brought us to shilin night market and walk us around
she brought along her pet. we played with it while eating.
we walk around
we do not have a lot of common topics so there were some awkward silence.
got to know that she has acid reflux condition as well. and she just did an enthoscopy the week before. she has to make medication for 3 years, regularly. or she has to do operation. she will puke if she eats irregularly. and she has heartburn almost every other day
she is not suppose to eat by 5pm
i met her only at around 7pm
so she didn't really eat before that. now i know why she had to take a quick bite.
i almost feel like i have committed a crime by asking her to leave her stomach empty for the night market food.
X((
i promised her that i will call her 3 years later. to check on her condition.
and i will do it.
for a girl whom i met in singapore when she was here on exchange.
we didn't talk much in singapore
but she took time out for me
a short and average looking guy.
my vocabulary can't express my thankfulness adequately.
当时我有一鼓想保护她的冲动
but i realise that it can't possibily go further than this. so i kept quiet
it is getting late and she is going home.
i gave her a penchant with her name on it which i bought in kenting and 2 cards which i wrote during lunch at taipei 101. she thanked me?
and we walk different directions
and i console myself that
this can't never be the last time i see her
like what i have posted before on
WEDNESDAY, MAY 13, 2009
我這一生中, 一定要再與你相見.
面對面的!!
至少一次!!
希望吧...
開始存錢啦!!!
the longer we stay apart means we are closer to meeting each other again
...
16th july
we are leaving taiwan
want to hear her voice 1 last time but 该死的sim card has no more money in it. and i sent her an fb msg.
...
见到你让我觉得更加舍不得走。你这种好女孩子太少见了。很想和你更进一步但知道不是很可能。：＂(
...
and wish her good health
felt better after sending this msg
17th july
kept looking at facebook and check if she replied and fall asleep doing that. dreamt of many different kind of replies that she can give, thinking that it is reality.
dream, wake up, check phone, haven't reply, sleep, dream, wake up, check phone, haven't reply, sleep, dream, wake up, check phone, haven't reply, sleep, dream, wake up, check phone.
she replied and said that she will be busy when school starts
well well
friends ask me what are the chances of being together with her
i know and i said that it is close to zero
and i know that it is time to move on
it is quite a childish crush i must say but when you are in the midst of it, not easy to move on
what's on my mind now
getting an internship in taiwan
and call her in 3 years time
072014
i will call you
Monday, December 21, 2009
Monday, December 07, 2009
I was lamenting about not having anything/anyone to think about/of.
Now i have someone to think about/of. and i think about/of her very often.
it's so often that it scares me. it has been a long while since anyone fills my mind.
and now
i am lamenting again.
because.
i dare not do anything else except thinking about/of her.
:(
Now i have someone to think about/of. and i think about/of her very often.
it's so often that it scares me. it has been a long while since anyone fills my mind.
and now
i am lamenting again.
because.
i dare not do anything else except thinking about/of her.
:(
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Monday, July 06, 2009
i need some distractions
something to think about
or someone else to think about.
there is so much free time by myself now
furthermore i spend so much time travelling by myself
one good thing about travelling by yourself is that you think about stuff and reflect on your actions
one bad thing about travelling by yourself is that you think TOO MUCH about a lot of things
i know that it is not appropriate, but most of the time i think about V
kept thinking about V
yes, thats you Vellayappan
HAHAHAHA
recently, this song by Boyzone stuck in my head.
Everyday I Love You.
there is this million dollar question in the lyrics
"If I ask, would you say 'yes'?"~~~
Vellayappan... i miss you...
something to think about
or someone else to think about.
there is so much free time by myself now
furthermore i spend so much time travelling by myself
one good thing about travelling by yourself is that you think about stuff and reflect on your actions
one bad thing about travelling by yourself is that you think TOO MUCH about a lot of things
i know that it is not appropriate, but most of the time i think about V
kept thinking about V
yes, thats you Vellayappan
HAHAHAHA
recently, this song by Boyzone stuck in my head.
Everyday I Love You.
there is this million dollar question in the lyrics
"If I ask, would you say 'yes'?"~~~
Vellayappan... i miss you...
Monday, June 15, 2009
the way of doing things.
in life
there are only 2 kinds of things.
the right things and the wrong things.
there are only 2 ways in doing these 2 kinds of things.
the right way and the wrong way.
so here are the permutations
doing the right thing the right way ---> good
doing the right thing the wrong way ---> bad
doing the wrong thing the wrong way ---> very bad
doing the wrong thing the right way ---> very good!
in life
there are only 2 kinds of things.
the right things and the wrong things.
there are only 2 ways in doing these 2 kinds of things.
the right way and the wrong way.
so here are the permutations
doing the right thing the right way ---> good
doing the right thing the wrong way ---> bad
doing the wrong thing the wrong way ---> very bad
doing the wrong thing the right way ---> very good!
Friday, May 29, 2009
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Friday, May 08, 2009
Thursday, May 07, 2009
i have nvr been so majorly punked. twice in this year so far.
being promised of a rank but only to have it voided on the last day.
or rather the last hour before the actual event
how can i not feel cheated? how can i not feel betrayed?
"things don't always go your way"
"life is not a bed of roses"
yea yea i know all these
but these are the last things that i want to hear from this fuked up person
i will definitely feeel so fucking disgusted and puke into the phone if i were to hear you saying it
i can curse all i want here. but of coz there will be dire consequences.
so is it worth it?
i am not gonna ask "what did i do to deserve all these?" becoz no one can answer me.
i was some how influenced by my fuked up supervisor and my behaviour has some how changed a little, to a fuked up way. fucking fucked up
i realised it along the way but i just let it be becoz i thought that by slacking, i am gaining something... free time... relaxed... whatever
now i am ashamed of myself, for allow him to influence me to have such a fuked up mindset.
here are the words that the fuked up person always say. i fucking wonder whether he knows the meaning of these sentences coz he nvr really do what he says
"i will try my best"
"i will get back to you"
"i will let you know asap"
fuck all these
now the only thing that i am unhappy about is
why the fuck did such a fuked up person come into my life?
giving me false hopes.
just fucking tell me off right away la fuck so that i don't need to feel so fucking cheated.
however only thru such circumstances, people from the other end of the spectrum step into my life.
and not all the people you meet in your life are even half as sincere and dedicated like you
and make me realise this brutal fact that there are ups and downs in life
but fuck la currently i am having downs only
nonetheless i am thankful to have good and bad people coming in at this stage of my life.
giving me a wide range of people whom i will meet time and again in future
and allowing me to see people in a more accurate and perceptive way
and not trust fucked up people
argh fucking screwed up
argh fuck la as if you all know what the fuck i was talking about in this post
duck you all la
being promised of a rank but only to have it voided on the last day.
or rather the last hour before the actual event
how can i not feel cheated? how can i not feel betrayed?
"things don't always go your way"
"life is not a bed of roses"
yea yea i know all these
but these are the last things that i want to hear from this fuked up person
i will definitely feeel so fucking disgusted and puke into the phone if i were to hear you saying it
i can curse all i want here. but of coz there will be dire consequences.
so is it worth it?
i am not gonna ask "what did i do to deserve all these?" becoz no one can answer me.
i was some how influenced by my fuked up supervisor and my behaviour has some how changed a little, to a fuked up way. fucking fucked up
i realised it along the way but i just let it be becoz i thought that by slacking, i am gaining something... free time... relaxed... whatever
now i am ashamed of myself, for allow him to influence me to have such a fuked up mindset.
here are the words that the fuked up person always say. i fucking wonder whether he knows the meaning of these sentences coz he nvr really do what he says
"i will try my best"
"i will get back to you"
"i will let you know asap"
fuck all these
now the only thing that i am unhappy about is
why the fuck did such a fuked up person come into my life?
giving me false hopes.
just fucking tell me off right away la fuck so that i don't need to feel so fucking cheated.
however only thru such circumstances, people from the other end of the spectrum step into my life.
and not all the people you meet in your life are even half as sincere and dedicated like you
and make me realise this brutal fact that there are ups and downs in life
but fuck la currently i am having downs only
nonetheless i am thankful to have good and bad people coming in at this stage of my life.
giving me a wide range of people whom i will meet time and again in future
and allowing me to see people in a more accurate and perceptive way
and not trust fucked up people
argh fucking screwed up
argh fuck la as if you all know what the fuck i was talking about in this post
duck you all la
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